Today….
I’m just grateful for EVERYTHING that is happening in my life…
I have the best coaching job EVER. Even with the struggles and the challenges it throws at me, I couldn’t ask for a better experience.
Further, I’m SO incredibly lucky to have found Kappa Delta and to have the love of the sisterhood in my life… Our chapter has struggled. We’re working on fixing it. We’re getting the help from HQ that we need, and will come out as a top chapter, as long as everything goes according to plan. The enthusiasm of the two LDCs that will be living with us in LESS THAN A MONTH has drawn me to tears multiple times. The love that comes from living our ritual is impossible to put into words… AOT and Ta Kala Diokomen always <3
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When Sorority Girls Run Into Their Sisters at a Party
Torn
Ever have that feeling where you’re really just not sure of yourself? Usually I’m quite sure of myself. I know exactly what I should do in certain situations. But today, not so much. One of my girls that I coach, one of my seniors, has thrown something at me I wasn’t ready for. We have a strict no substance policy… I have proof that she’s broken it. When I confronted her, she just said, “Ok.” Just ok? Really? You’re about one step away from being removed from leadership and you just say ok?
It’s so frustrating wanting better for someone than they want for themselves. And I’m not saying how I live my life or how I expect her to live her life are better than the choices she’s making. I’m just saying I want what’s best for her, to help her, and what’s best for her team. When team members feel uncomfortable because of these actions, how is it fair to anyone? And when we have a policy set, everyone has to follow it. I love all of my seniors this year… They were my babies when I was still in high school. So I don’t want any of them to not have any opportunities. But is it fair to the other three to say well, you have to uphold these policies, but we’ll let it slip for her? It’s so hard with my own personal feelings being mixed in. This job can be so rewarding, but so draining in the same sense. I don’t think I was prepared for the responsibility of 15 other girls when I’m only 19… And, sadly, this is the first real issue I’ve had to deal with… Hopefully there aren’t many more, because it’s incredibly draining. I really do love them all. Why can’t this job JUST be the positives?
It would be so much easier if all I did was come in, teach the work and clean it, then leave. But I’m so incredibly invested in helping to make these girls better people, leaders. I’m interested in them as people and giving them the tools to be as successful as possible in their futures. But when I’m still figuring that out for myself, it’s SO hard to do it for 15 other people at the same time. It’s absolutely terrifying how much I care and how much I hope to see happen for this group. My dreams are so big. But, I guess, If your dreams don’t scare you, they’re not big enough. Time to put on the big girl panties and do this for them <3
